Saturday, February 9, 2013

It isn't all about me

Shocking, I know. You thought it was all about me, didn't you? :)

We went to a memorial service today. Sweet baby Josiah Owen was laid to rest beside his big brother. It was beautiful; sad and heartbreaking and confusion-inducing but it was beautiful. Jesus was there; comforting and spreading his peace upon each head. The Marx family was heart broken over the loss of another son but the Lord was covering them with joy and peace just as we all have asked Him to do. It was beautiful.

1 Samuel 1:27-28  I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.

I had the privilege, again, of meeting some wonderful women and I am so overjoyed that Jesus has linked us all in this way. There is nothing like the love I have for families of loss. There is just a silent understanding. If there is one thing this life and this journey have taught Wesley and I it is this: it is not all about us.

The second that Elle passed away a surge of compassion rushed into our hearts. An ache so deep that even a year and a half later it is still there. I have no idea if our Jesus will do something more with it some day but for now it just sits and calls to us when other families are hurting. It is not all about us; it is about them. It is about Cat and Derek and their family. It is about the ache they are feeling tonight. It is about the love and the joy we can share with them. It is about showing compassion in their desperate time of need.

Isaiah 43:2 When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.

Today was not easy for Wesley and I. We walked into another service just like the service for our daughter. We looked at the tiny box that held that sweet baby boy. We watched his mama and his daddy cry tears of sadness over the dreams that would be buried. We watched as they watched his box be carried out of that room, never to be seen again. This day brought back all of the emotions of that day. But, today was not about us. It was about them. It was about crying tears for them and being there to show them that it's not all about us. It was about showing the love of our Savior. It was about reminding them of the faithfulness of our God. It was about them.

Tonight I just feel so blessed to have grown up in a home where it wasn't all about me. My parents were gracious enough to teach us all how to have compassion for others. They made sure that self-pity did not last long and they taught us that it could be turned into compassion for others. I am grateful for such a wonderful mama and daddy. I don't talk about them very much here but just know they are awesome and deserve way more praise than I give them.

Isaiah 49:16 See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands.
Always in my mind is a picture of Jerusalem’s walls in ruins.

I am hesitant to post this here but I received a rather un-compassionate comment here about a week ago. Anonymous decided that they needed to let me know their feelings, which this is a public blog and they are free to comment how they please. I was not fond of this comment and it just made me more aware of my compassion towards others. I thanked the Lord for the reminder and silently yelled at anonymous in my mind. :) Be careful because one day you may be the one needing just a little bit of compassion. I hope that you are showing some mercy and compassion to those in your corner of this world that need it.

Jesus, thank you for the gift of compassion. Thank you for giving me just enough today to love a family that needed it. I pray that you will continue to move me to compassion for others who are aching. I pray for the Marx family near Jesus, be oh so near. Thank you for giving Catherine peace and joy. Thank you that this experience was so completely different from Owen's. Thank you that you are the giver of comfort and strength and all things great. I love you and continue to pour your mercy out on Catherine, Derek, Brayden and Addison...

Job 1:21 The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.


Isaiah 61:3 To all who mourn in Israel, He will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his own glory.

Elle and Isaiah's Mommy


Heather said...

This is the first time I've noticed you signing it "Elle and Isaiah's Mommy" I'm just weeping ... I love and miss you so much. I can't wait to see your little man in June. <3

Naomi said...

Sobbing at this video.... that song and slideshow was precious. I really don't understand it all, just know that we will all be together again in heaven and i am so thankful for that comfort. Crying tears for this family and for your family right now. praying for you always.

Ruth Talbot said...

Being totally honest. I often have a very difficult time comprehending the fact that some people suffer so many hardships in this life while others just seem to skate through.

Betty said...

One of the biggest gifts God blessed me with was that of others also on this journey. Its such a comfort to know there are others who have been there, felt these emotions...and then it is our turn to cry along side each new member. The tears of others mean so much because it is through those tears that another family acknowledges the life of our sweet children.

Tesha Papik said...

Oh my goodness that is so sad. I am sorry I missed this post a while back i will pray now We both know prayers are always need when you say goodbye to a baby.

Also wanted to let you know

Hi friends,

OK I have been in a blogger nightmare the last few days. My .com was high jacked and I have been trying to work out all the kinks so
Google friends connect and feeds will still work. I think I did it!!!!

Even if you already re subscribed once IT IS NOT WORKING. I had to adjust some sight settings and you need to do it again.

Anyway I want to ask once more time that you would visit my new URL and resubscribe through which ever reader you uses.

This is the instructions to resubscribe through Google friends Connect

Go to my new address

Go to Google friends connect and sigh in,
Then go to options, sight settings hit stop following this blog (on the right hand side)
Next refresh the page
last re-follow the blog

I am so sorry for the hassle. I love the relationships we have built through the internet let keep them going!
Thank you so much for your support and understanding!

Robin Dini Photography said...

For a mother who has suffered the loss of two babies, you are incredibly beautiful and I can't believe how much heartache you have had to deal with in just under two short years. My heart goes out to you and I hope that you have peace and your children comfort you and embrace you with love everyday.

Robin Dini Photography said...

To the mother of these two babies loss, i hope you find strength and peace with your children and families everyday. I cannot even begin to imagine how your heart feels having gone through this is such a close span of time. xo